Growing Up "the hard way"

so last Thursday march 13,2013 I got in to a bad car accident, no one was hurt thank GOD! but I am a bit sore my car is in getting fixed I just hope it won't cost me both my kidneys. *-* My Fiancée who was the only other passenger in my car at the time of the accident has not left me yet his feelings for me have ben cemented in "stone" he loves me more than ever (he told me so) I'm just in a really weird head space I'm panicky on an off the bounce back from this is taking way longer than I would like understandably so I'm gonna be on a very tight budget for a long while I think I'll calm down once I know how bad the damage is gonna cost me I fucked up now I have to climb up be an adult and fix this I just feel like I failed every one especially my parents again too top things off I did not pass my Math GED test again I feel so weird I can't describe this funky place I'm in it just feels like one dam thing after another this that and so on I'm not wasting my time with "why me" I'm just working my butt off to climb out of this mess I have made for myself I just feel so out of it my head spinning I've kind of ben in a daze since this all happened on Thursday I wish that their was some way to help me stop feeling like a fuck up I know that makes me sound like a huge dumb-ass But right now I'm still in a foggy haze I'm 24 years old for peat sake I should know better than this sham on me (slaps' myself hard across the face)