My Spiritual Rebirth

As I come to this marvelous beginning in my life I can’t help but wonder why I feel so lost in my selves one religion I feel like a slave to this christen theory of hate and descent the blood and the death when I was young I used to dream of an earthy life with riches and joys beyond that christen faith I used to take long walks in nature and feel a special connection with the life around me I’d feel a secret disconnection from my christen family I used to lay awake late at night and cry for that missing peace of me that I longed to find. Then wile I was sleeping I saw above me the world was spinning as I appeared to be standing under a magnificent canopy and I looked up as I was filled my soul was filled with this heavenly music of the trees and it seemed to me as I saw these little beings I called fairies I felt for the first time like I was home a one with the trees the earth but then I was lost again like I’m living in my head and not my body I’d live each day in just a sort of dead state numb to the rest of the world in kind of an upside down motion I felt numb to this thing called life I’d never known my own I wish I was aloud to live free and accepet the world as a place of beauty but as I live this thing calles out to me…